I feel different, I lost the war?

dear oh dear. i have something missing. my remedy to get your heart to love me.
now, i feel like i'm losing in this war. but i never walk back. i pushing until my dead to have you. now i cant think, cant sleep, cant do anything right. i feel ashamed to myself. why this happen to me?. please, give me a chance. i totally follow your needed. but what can i get you? my heart, my soul.my spirit, and my pray. my work hard, my attitude. i have show my true identity. please. dont look me as friend... please look me as a man. i make my change to make me the best. to show you what i said, i make it. dear..
I LOVE U !! U COMPLETE ME !!