why the world so cruel to me.

as i think about the past time of me. i feel in my own life, has this thing still playing role in my life. my life totally have many wall. too many challenging road i taken. i feel pain. i hurt myself alot. just to show my love, my believer.
i need someone that knew me. to guide me, to love me. i felt alone. why this thing happen to me all the time. i almost drown to the dark side of me. i dont wan to go to the pit. i push to my limit to share, to love. i saw a light came from you, dear. u open my heart to see the bright side. im so happy with you. i wan to share with you. i wan to be with you. please take me to your heart. your heart so pure. i cant stand enough to fight the evil on me. but togather, we will win the war.
dear. i crush on you. every day I LOVE U !!

I feel different, I lost the war?

dear oh dear. i have something missing. my remedy to get your heart to love me.
now, i feel like i'm losing in this war. but i never walk back. i pushing until my dead to have you. now i cant think, cant sleep, cant do anything right. i feel ashamed to myself. why this happen to me?. please, give me a chance. i totally follow your needed. but what can i get you? my heart, my soul.my spirit, and my pray. my work hard, my attitude. i have show my true identity. please. dont look me as friend... please look me as a man. i make my change to make me the best. to show you what i said, i make it. dear..
I LOVE U !! U COMPLETE ME !!

The week of busy

elo.
long time no post.. totally bz about my industrial training.
too much the activity.