Get to go, Sucide Hotline.

Wow . its been hot cold day. not in summer. but near winter. raining season. reach to the end of November. December is coming. feeling like eating sundae chocolate with burning marshmallow as the topping. as today, i with my parents at kulim kedah. this journey continue after having break at taiping perak. we also snap some historical place that been live when my father study in boarding school. what a day.

Homecoming Month

Start the new month(December), my rest time is over and change to working days. Later on i have some time to share activities with my club. BBQ and some tourney. i may fag, but the experience to make some event chill me down. Go Green!

Study, Work and Activities

The round 1 begins. After moving thou the diploma season, get ready to face new world. as we now its working season. need cover the past 'loan' issue. better get it started. soon or later they will find us. And for the club activity, i will now resume the plan of the activity such as BBQ party and some mini tourney for club. 1st week of rest, i do things except nothing. i need to get ready to the next mission.

Pre-Jointed all Experience and Knowledge

Long time no post in these blog.. so i writing down to a countdown of final examination that will attended. Tomorrow start the 1st paper. LOLZ. still want online? haha. Just to checking my email only. ok. Tomorrow is the day that i will joint all the experience and knowledge to overcome my best result. Target Degree = University Kebangsaan Malaysia. May Allah bless all the student of DTK 6.

Final Lap of the Month

Is been awhile when the Ramadan came.. now reach the final day of the month. I couldn't believe that the time files too fast. I still need to do the work. Too many. Still can I handle it? I hope so.

Alert of incoming transmission

" My dear fellas, As you seen on local news you will reopen your eyes and ears. This end year of the earth seem to be a dead. The clues is all out there. Earthquake, Storm, Hurricane, Flood .. The Earth now unstable. Someday, there will be smell of the rotten eggs on our land earth. There will be a big elephant in the room. The Apocalypse. Fear or not, the time is come. My dear fellas, Please together hold in one position. choose the rightful path of the life. think an rethink about what are you choose. Pray for mercy. the one an only god. "

Word of the wordsmith

Having the great time on making the poem. What i love about it is the power language that performs in the list of poem. Making someone feel attracted to my undisclosed poem. Is not an easy task to do the poem. But it feels great when it finish. The expression, joy of the day. To make the life quite happening. Let some day know what are true reason that i taking this change to make my life full with knowledge. When we think about that. it just say that i express myself into the poem. About my life, my pain, my suffer in a piece of paper.

Private Sector

Mission : Sudden Suicide

On this day, many local article and newspaper shows us about world of fatality in human. Still counting, 65 cases of dumping baby. Are they insane? Dumping babies on the side of the river, near dustbin or on boxes. What on earth is that? Who did the responsible in this cases? Not matured enough. Think 1st. Please.

Incharged or Discharged

according to the world time. i think the age of the world reach the limitation . the bigger universe reach. they also will reach the small place within the universe suck to a tiny tiny planet. the big bang theory.

Heart Break Kid

Reverse on the past. Is really happen? like Dejavu to me. The lecture i like most are stunned what happen on today. the first day of fasting month. im just a kid. now my mind disturbed by the issue. i lost on my track to be a better of tomorrow. i failed me. how to repair such a damaged that we create onto the car. i cant return to the past. i cant avoid it because it been past on me. i just gotta straight to the road that i invented for better life of me.

True the wheel of life are round and rounded again. it will see, it not will be see. my past. i was a good little soldier. i respect my lecture same level of my parents. but in that day. lecture that i like are sad because of the attitude. im in touch what lecture said. believe me , in that time i also crying.

present time. i wanna that feeling. i wanna cry out. feel the outrages of my inner heart. fly bye my temper of anything. it is the strengthen my will, my mind and my soul.

im just a kid. the Heart Break Kid.

Moderated of Technology

think a future limitation of RFID technology. Is there will have electronic money that replace now days money paper? just think about that. in my theory, if the RFID technology replaced the money paper, there will no have the system called agreement of buy-sell barter. is like the changing item between this or that thing to money. the process of new technology leads to unknown give (real money to buy something), and take item (the item that we want to buy). where is buy-sell agreement?? . My theory based on Islamic resource.

This new technology create for better safety. it will safe your money from robber. yeah, is right. but just think about it. if this technology reach to your neighborhood, all the money will change to digital money that cant see even cant touch rather than now days analog money paper that we see and touch on your hand. just think about that. received as a knowledge for me and for your attention.

This new technology create the very small chip and planted on your body part. Think back. it just like robot that have chip. the chip stored most of your data such as MYKAD, Driving Licence and ATM card. Slowly human turns to an android.

P/S: it just a theory. if im wrong, forgive me.

Three Square Root

Everything just started. Open your eyes. see and remember. This is not the end but this is the control. Write hearts, minds and souls for nothing that could penetrate the barrier wall of the heart is.

People say;
where we want it? The world we know or we know the World?
We know to pick the World. Because this world is temporary.


People say;
where we want it? frog under the shell or outside the shell?
Choose to frogs outside shell. To be able to see what's happening in the world.

In the beginning, we are losing. we just stuck our minds to do differently. didn't see the truth behind. In the end, we knew this will happen.

Something but is nothing

Too many words that may i said to friends. but sometime i got something to tell about something in my mind but fact is nothing. just wanna see if the friends wanna hear my thought about something or just ignored it. some best friend are true listener. some best friend are bored to listen. its ok for me. at least he/she will replied in good manner to me.
For the first time i felt wrong. why someone hates me ? i have tried to calm him/her down but still he/she in such anger. young skywalker. like wanna win win win all the way. didn't try to lose. when i tried to explain. he/she bump me, push me to answer his/her question. i tried so many times to call the answer but he/she still babbling to me for an answer. in that point, i just stay on my opinion by calm him/her down first and answer the big Q that he/she gave to me. are they my fault? did i choose the right option? still craving in my mind.

Coding to myself

In return favor, im back for more code to coding for myself. i have great news and also the bad news. for the bad news, im feel little unwell. the great news, i got plan to enter the UKM's world. to be a programmer! i wan to join the Artifical Intelligent @ UKM . for the 1st time i felt happy for myself. i need those to fulfil my chosen to continue study at UKM..

New Semester. Last 6 months!

Tomorrow i return to continue the study. Last semester. Last 6 months! need focus more about my study. woah. cant think about that. my mind now just think to rest abit because im so tired..

Started Feel Alone

After all the mistakes and freedom that i touch, its time to me move to better world. the world that not alone. world that supportive and encourage me to say " I AM NOT ALONE ". My year has reach the half year of 50. I need to move out, now i mean..

'Oh god, am just a slave to you. I didn't have that courage to change my little unimportant destiny. im praying to you to give a courage, strength for me to make my unimportant destiny be the important destiny to myself. I don't wanna feel alone in this stunning world. I just want someone to accompany me, know me, like me, and also love me like same way that i love my parents. Oh god, forgive me. am just a slave to you.'

Truth, Lies or Random

Define "this"... also define "that".. nothing can change the fact. But yet, don't forget the Truth, Lies and Random. Truth person is the person that truth about all his/her tells. Lies is like a mirror of truth that cover up all stories to fulfilled his/her wanted. And also, the Random that even not be sure about his/her self to tells right or wrong.

The biggest mistake!

Trust or not trust. someone has taken me. im lost at that game. How this can be happen? being nice/cute.. but take advantages of my stuff. BooHoo me. i feels terible. like i mess the whole thing. The biggest mistake! . i feel bad for his/her . his/her totally nuts rite now. feel loney. i can 'give' all that his/her needs .. BUT i just want his/her TIME. the time that cant been return.. the time that cant be change. i want it so i can clear all my mistake past. think.

About someone..

Awalan ku padamu hanyalah sahabat.. Pertengahan ku padamu terdetiknya perasaan yang berlawan sifatku. Akhiran ku padamu hanyalah kesakitan padaku. tetapku hormati perasaanmu, tetap ku ingin kan detik yang seketika. Sekarang yang ada padaku hanyalah aku. Penderitaan nie diteruskan dengan tipu daya darimu. tak penah ku dengar janjimu yang kamu tepati. hanyalah semata-mata untuk menambil hatiku sahaja. membuatku gembira seketika. aku tau apa yang kamu lakukan pada ku. jangan memadang rendah padaku walaupon aku lagi tinggi darimu. aku sedar aku bukan untuk mu. aku sedar siapa diri ku. aku hanya manusia yang inginkan satu talian untuk aku berkongsi segala yang dilalui. adakah kamu mengerti perasaan ku? jangan la membisu. hanya mendengar luahan diriku. aku inginkan juga luahan darimu walaupon kita tak bersama. kerana hanya kamu yang aku percayai. berilah peluang untuk aku. walaupon hanya seketika

Free To Be You And Me

for the first time.. i feel something that never happen before.
to being totally free. i wish i could have the guts to spread my word to someone.
someone that i love. its ok. my brain within my soul.

2010 - the new era of all !

too much changing around here.
the system. the government. the rules.

2010 is the year that people take all out seriously.
2009 is the past that people make alot of mistake.

my conclusion, 2010 is the new era for new brand people creating new ideas from learning the past.

for me, my job is here. "to link very past and link very future"